Love Letter to the Self-Sabotaging
What is self-sabotage?
One aspect of self-sabotage can be seen when you take actions that do not benefit but actually are a detriment to your progress in life.
“But king Solomon loved many strange women …” 1 Kings 11:1
The story of Solomon, the wisest man to have ever lived, gives us a peek into the life of a world-renowned king who had it all together, until he didn’t. Solomon was given great wisdom from the Most High at the beginning of his reign. He served Yah and gained favor with Him and the nations round about. However, Solomon’s infatuation with strange women (women who were not of the Most High) took away his heart from serving Yah. He eventually married over 700 women while also keeping around 300 concubines. His wives enticed him into serving their gods and Solomon not only served these idols, but built temples and high places for their veneration. In the end, he joined himself to those idols, his kingdom split after his death, and none of it went back to its former glory.
I believe King Solomon’s story is one of self-sabotage. He had splendor and fame, which all came to him through his relationship with Yahuah. But as his heart turned from Yah, he went and sought after the idols of his wives, gods which were no gods at all. He left off from serving Yah, the only kind and gracious One. Therefore, the latter end of his life was filled with mental strife and idolatry, because even with all those women, he writes the following:
“And I find more bitter than death the woman whose heart is snares and nets, whose hands are fetters. He who pleases Yah shall escape from her, but the sinner shall be trapped by her. Here is what I found, says the Preacher, adding one thing to the other to find out the reason, which my soul still seeks but I cannot find: one man among a thousand I have found, but one woman among all these I have not found.” Ecclesiastes 7:26-28
In the end, the strange women, whose hearts were snares and nets, to whom he joined himself, profited him nothing.
The second aspect of self-sabotage can be seen throughout your own life when you allow fear to impede your progress or prevent you from meeting your goals. You overthink due to fear of an unpleasant outcome or reality, which leads to counterproductive reactions that push others away or stagnate your relationships and accomplishments. You think you’re not good enough for that job or that relationship or that endeavor. And because of your self-limiting belief, you become stagnant and remain on the same level without upward or forward movement.
“For Yahuah has not given you a spirit of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind.”
2 Timothy 1:7
Remember who you are, and to Whom you belong. You are a child of the King, an heir of eternal salvation through Yahusha Ha Mashiah. Yah’s good pleasure is to give you the Kingdom. Therefore, as you walk in alignment with Him, you are counted worthy of the good gifts of heaven, the dew that falls freely from the Father of lights, in Whom is no shadow of turning. It pleases the Most High to bless His children. So before you think yourself unworthy, understand and know that you are the child of the living Elohim.
Be perfected in love, and walk in confidence in Him, knowing and believing that you are deserving of every good and perfect gift.
